Good Night! I am writing to you all on the eve of an important day for me. Tomorrow is the day I go back on my diet (healthier way of life).
For most of you, I need to go deeper into this so that you have an understanding of what has been happening over here.
In June I decided I would change my lifestyle and my eating by eating lean proteins and cutting out most carbs, sugars, etc. This proved to be very successful for me and I lost 25 pounds in less than 3 months. See progress photo here:
It is important for you to understand that I made the choice to go on this diet because with each day, I was becoming more and more miserable in my own skin. Please note I am well aware that there are people out there bigger than I was and I am not here to comment or judge anything about them or their appearance. I 110% believe it is up to each person to draw their own conclusions about their health. I am merely stating that I was personally unhappy with myself. It was seeping into every aspect of my life (as things typically do). I have found that people who are unhappy with themselves become so very toxic to themselves and to those around them. I was tired of being miserable. I was tired of making others miserable. I wanted to be healthy for my husband so we could share a long life together. I wanted to go shopping without that feeling of COMPLETE DREAD that I had (still have). I wanted to be a positive role model for my children ; a mom they could be proud to point out to their friends. Shit, I wanted to be HOT. Not like in a “run around on my hubby” kind of hot but just hot for myself. Hot like going into a dressing room and knowing everything will fit and everything will look pretty damn amazing…That kind of hot.
So, I made the decision, took the plunge and began my journey. I took measurements each week as well as photos. I was very strict and I was making pretty amazing strides. Then, I had my hysterectomy scheduled and was told that I had to go off the diet ASAP and would have to wait to go back on until well after my surgery. This had to happen because I had put my body in Ketosis with this diet and I needed to have my system running at full capacity when going under the knife and then healing from a major surgery. In that time (about 2 months) I have gained 11 lbs. back.
I know what you may be thinking. “Hey, you didn’t gain it all back.” You are, of course, correct. I am thankful for that. I had hoped I would not gain any, but I did. It has happened and its fact.
So here I am, the eve of the new beginning of this diet for me. I vowed to myself that I would be sure to blog truly authentic content. That I would be brave and forge forward with my writing and when I am honest with myself, I know that means I need to write about ALL the stuff, not just the good and flowery stuff. The truth is, I am looking at a tough road ahead with a goal to get to a healthy weight. I am looking to lose 75 more lbs. I will lose 75 lbs.
The memoirs of THIS housewife is complex. More complex than even I realized. There are so many things I want to embrace in this amazing life. I am in love with my life and my family and I want to be a DOER. I don’t want to be a person who “talks” about what they want to do, I want to be the person “doing” it.
So that may feel to some of you that I am all over the place. When I am blogging about my husband, kids, helpful organization tips, my writing, my weight loss, my swimming, holiday ideas, creative business endeavors, etc. But I am here, in my truth- being me. Complex and multi-faceted and living this Extraordinary Life in Camo (just as promised on the header of the blog).
So PLEASE say a prayer for me. Wish me well. Support my efforts. And if you see me in a McDonald’s drive through, rear-end me. Seriously, you totally have my permission. Here is the permission slip!
Motivational Tip for those of you who want to join me on the Healthy Train: Check out my Pinterest (Quatro Mom) to look at my board, “What I’ll be Sportin’ when I’m Skinny”. I think the visual motivation this will provide will be worth it’s weight in gold for me! The, create your own board that you can fill with images, recipes, quotes, clothes, etc. that get you excited about your journey. Follow me on Pinterest and I will follow you. Share your board with me. I want to support you as well!