Not feeling like such a hot parent today. I had big plans. I was going to pick up my children early to surprise them and take them to the new Christmas movie, Star. I thought it would be a fun moment for us as we get ready to swing into the holiday season. After all, Marlin (our Elf on the Shelf) will be here this week and we are psyched for his arrival….
Then, today, my children did this cute little thing they do some mornings. I don’t know if any of yours do this. Ah, its the BEST! See if it sounds familiar….
“HE touched me!”
“She is looking at me!”
“It isn’t MY job!”
“You need to come because now its getting physical”
“Why can’t we have Halloween candy for lunch? Seriously, Mom! You are such a fun ruiner.”
etc, etc, etc, (all actual quotes here).
Surprisingly this doesn’t have me feeling all the feels if you catch my drift. It has me thinking, “The only star you are going to see are the ones twirling around your head like a cartoon character…” just kidding about that part but COME ON! A Fun Ruiner?? I am like- the QUEEN of Fun!
I am now sitting at the library working on a writing project but I keep coming back to this morning. I keep coming back to the fact that despite it all, I STILL want to surprise them and pick them up and share this magical moment with them. Am I delusional???
Then, now that I am calming (writing does this for me), I am forced to remember some other things that ALSO happened today that I had forgotten when I let the negativity take over.
“Spicy, you can go first. Ladies first- Always.”
“Thanks for recording the Steelers for me mom. I can’t wait to see if they won. Don’t tell me, I want to be surprised.”
“I’m going to love nature A LOT today in Environmental Science class today. Like more than normal.”
“I’m going to ask my Spanish teacher to help me write a book in Spanish.”
“I love you, Mom” – times 3.
I love you all, too! I love it all. The Christmas spirit isn’t failed here like I thought. I just need to embrace it all and remember that its tough sometimes; being a parental unit. But, if you just keep your eye on the Star (the good), you’ll find something that makes all the travels worth it.