We always hear, “Write what you know.” Perhaps that is why I was so quiet for so long. I wasn’t sure I knew much at all. I was never focused on one thing long enough to speak, er, write about it with any sort of intelligence or wisdom. I go from the time I wake until the time I collapse. Swimming, hockey, ballet, scouting, play dates, church, school trips, school volunteering, all household task, etc. etc. etc…..
Here it is. I am a wife. I am a mom. And these people I made are getting older. They are getting busier. The more involved they become in their lives, the less in touch I become with my own. I’m aware this is not a huge revelation and I know from speaking to my sister, its normal. But why? Why does it have to be? Why does helping them find their way mean I must lose mine?
It doesn’t. IT DOESN’T!
And they aren’t asking that of me. My husband isn’t asking that of me. I am doing it to myself. How many stay at home parents do that to themselves? It doesn’t make me a hero. It doesn’t make me a martyr. It makes me less than what I am called to be and that serves no one. Not my husband, my community, my children, my God nor myself.
I am getting back to the core of myself. I am vowing to myself and this little piece of space I have in the great ether that I am going to carve out time- for me. I am going to take care of me. I will practice my craft and make time to do what I love. I used to see that as selfish. I don’t anymore. I need to take care of my WHOLE self so I can wholeheartedly be an asset to my family and their lives. So I can be me.
So I am going to write. Create. Get back to my core.
Are you? Are you doing what you are called to do? If not, please do. The world will be a brighter place when we are ALL our Authentic selves.