I’m feeling all the feels today. Full of wonder and gratitude. Even surrounded by inclement weather, I feel the sunshine. This man, my husband, turns 43 today! And I am in wonder every day that we get to share this life together. It is a blessing. I see it for what it is. That is a gift in and of itself.
I am also feeling a touch of melancholy today. You see, this 43rd birthday for my husband has been huge for me. My father died when he was 42. I was 7 and at the time it seemed as though he was so old. I remember being perplexed when people said, “Oh, he was so young…” I was cognizant of many things all year that my husband was 42. I was aware we also had 4 children. That we also had a 7 year old. The familiar roles were at times, startling.
And now, today, he is 43. The spell has been broken. We are together and we are living on. Sometimes tedious, sometimes hard but always, always full of wonder.