Did I ever share my word for 2019? It doesn’t seem as though I did. 2018 was hard. My word back then was Wonder. I found myself full of wonder but in none of the ways I imagined. Mostly just WONDERing what to do. WONDERing how I got to a place I didn’t intend to get to. To be frank, WONDERing that the hell I was doing.
I was glad when 2018 was over. Its a story for another post. A story that will take courage to tell and one that must be told when littles (can I still call Clever, Dapper and Spicy littles when they are 10, 9 and breathing down 8’s neck??) are not underfoot with excitement for Christmas… Its hard because as every writer knows, our stories are not our own. They are intertwined and weaved with other’s lives and truths. Our version is but one facet… Still, as writers also know, stories within us must come forth or they overcrowd and corrupt our minds leaving no room for new stories and beginnings. So I will write my story and you will hear my story in due time.
As it is, 2019 came. I anticipated it and welcomed a fresh new year. Not to lose weight (tho I need to), not to quit smoking (did that almost 11 years ago- thank you very much)- no real resolutions were happening here. I was just grateful to see a new year, pick a new word and begin again.
My word for 2019 was (and for the next 20 days still is) STRONG.
It was deceptive at first, I admit. Its a bold word and claiming it as my word of the year was daring. Especially given the fact I didn’t feel it. I wasn’t sure I believed it. Okay, I know I didn’t believe it. But I made it my word and I thought about it every single day thus far in 2019. I make decisions that will make me a strong person. I work to make my marriage strong. I strive to be a strong role model for my littles . I have strong friendships and learned to appreciate them and nurture them. I was strong in the realization that other friendships weren’t. This is okay, it makes the strong outshine. I see them clearly. I feel that this year – and last- let me see everyone clearly. I still STRONGly wish everyone well.
I am spending the next several weeks thinking and praying for my next word. Praying that Jesus just lets it come to me and gives me the purpose to slay all things with my word!
2020, I’m coming for you and I am so happy to keep on keeping on!