2019

 

Did I ever share my word for 2019?  It doesn’t seem as though I did.  2018 was hard.  My word back then was Wonder.  I found myself full of wonder but in none of the ways I imagined.  Mostly just WONDERing what to do.  WONDERing how I got to a place I didn’t intend to get to.  To be frank, WONDERing that the hell I was doing.

I was glad when 2018 was over.  Its a story for another post.  A story that will take courage to tell and one that must be told when littles (can I still call Clever, Dapper and Spicy littles when they are 10, 9 and breathing down 8’s neck??) are not underfoot with excitement for Christmas…  Its hard because as every writer knows, our stories are not our own.  They are intertwined and weaved with other’s lives and truths.  Our version is but one facet… Still, as writers also know, stories within us must come forth or they overcrowd and corrupt our minds leaving no room for new stories and beginnings.  So I will write my story and you will hear my story in due time.

As it is, 2019 came.  I anticipated it and welcomed a fresh new year.  Not to lose weight (tho I need to), not to quit smoking (did that almost 11 years ago- thank you very much)- no real resolutions were happening here.  I was just grateful to see a new year, pick a new word and begin again.

My word for 2019 was (and for the next 20 days still is) STRONG.

It was deceptive at first, I admit.  Its a bold word and claiming it as my word of the year was daring.  Especially given the fact I didn’t feel it.  I wasn’t sure I believed it.  Okay, I know I didn’t believe it.  But I made it my word and I thought about it every single day thus far in 2019.  I make decisions that will make me a strong person. I work to make my marriage strong.  I strive to be a strong role model for my littles .  I have strong friendships and learned to appreciate them and nurture them.  I was strong in the realization that other friendships weren’t.  This is okay, it makes the strong outshine.  I see them clearly.  I feel that this year – and last- let me see everyone clearly.  I still STRONGly wish everyone well.

I am spending the next several weeks thinking and praying for my next word.  Praying that Jesus just lets it come to me and gives me the purpose to slay all things with my word!

2020, I’m coming for you and I am so happy to keep on keeping on!

XOXO

My Word for 2017…

2017

…is PURSUE.

For me and for this new year, this word pursue means so many things.

I want to pursue my children. Relentlessly.  I want to be a more present mom and make more memories with them that will last beyond my lifetime and throughout theirs.  I have always been here for my children, this year I want to make a conscious effort to engage more and truly pursue them.  All relationships take work.  Even those between a mother and her children.

I want to pursue my writing.  Chase it and have fun with it and always be seeking it.

I want to pursue knowledge with the furthering of my education.  I have set this goal and I want to continue on the path to reaching it.

I want to pursue relationships that are important to me.  To make extra time for those close to me that I want closer.  To take the time to show those special people just how much they mean to me.  Family and friends tend to get lost in the shuffle of life. I want to pursue them and bring them back in.

And last, I want to pursue the wisdom to know when to let things go.  I struggle with that.

Here is to 2017.  May we all be safe and healthy all year long!  Good luck to you in all your pursuits. (see what I did there?)

Thank you for reading and for following along.  XOXO

The Most Wonderful Time of the Year…

I cannot believe Christmas is here and that the New Year is right around the corner!  This year, WOW!  Words just cannot describe what this year has meant to me.  Well, actually, I am a writer so I know that words can most definitely describe it.  So they shall, right here.

As many of you read and probably remember from my previous posts, each year I choose a different word as the guide for myself, my focus (inspired by the book One Word– check it out).  In 2016, my word was IMMERSE.  Guys, I did just that!  All year long.

Monday night our brood all went driving to look at Christmas lights.  I was telling my husband I was so sad to see 2016 go -that 2016 was the best year of my life.  He summed it all up perfectly when he said, “Because this year, you finally became you.”  Powerful, right?  And he is so spot on!!  I am finally me!

I immersed myself into my blog and tried to be brave about it.  Tried to be honest about the pains and humble about the satisfactions.  I immersed myself (completely) into the writing, publication and promotion of my book.  Yes, my book.  I am a writer.  Now I live it and don’t just dream it.  I immersed myself into college (FULL TIME) when I went back to school after 20+ years.  I got tired – so damn tired- of telling myself all the things I wish I had done.  I decided to do them.  Lets face it, if I hadn’t, I would be here, a whole year later STILL wishing.  I decided that wishing is for the fainthearted.  I want to be doing!  Immersing!

2016 found me traveling loads.  I went somewhere almost every month – with the exception of when I couldn’t travel because I had a tummy tuck and lipo ( I call that immersing in vanity and you know what, I am okay with that every once in a while)!

January– Disney, Universal, Legoland with our littles- Magical time for sure.

February– Vegas- never been and it was so amazing

March– Hatteras- where I know I will end up someday

April– South Dakota, Minnesota and Iowa on a BOOK TOUR- how sweet is that?

May– Fort Lauderdale to pre-celebrate an amazing friend marrying her amazing guy

          Cabo- with great friends for great memories

          Wilmington to bond with my mom and sisters

June–  Book Tour in PA and MD

July– Tummy tuck time and a brief cameo at a wedding in PA.

August– girlie still down  until college started on the 29th!

September– the Poconos

October– Our Halloween Party

November– back to Cabo with our friends for a Tournament

December– VA for book event and our Christmas party- Oh- and the end of the semester when I was told I made the DEAN’s LIST!

I am in no way bragging, I am just trying to show you all that I was immersed in my life wholeheartedly.  I believe in this, you guys.  I want every person reading this to live.  Really live!  This is not our practice life.  We only have one shot at this.  Why not spend the time we have living colorful, creative, fun and AUTHENTIC lives!?  Please try it.  The world really will be a brighter place when we are all being our colorful selves!

I joked with my sister today that I wanted my word for 2017 to be DITTO so I could just repeat 2016.  I know, I know, that would be kind of cheating.  So I am thinking about my word and will post it shortly.  You all think of yours and let me know what you come up with.  Let 2017 be the year you let the whole world know you are here!

XOXO