2016 Word- Immerse

Hello, friends!  It has been awhile and I have missed you!

As many of you remember, my word for 2016 is Immerse.  I explained in a previous post why I chose that word and that that signified for me.  Please feel free to check it out.  My blog post today is a sort of report card on how my practice of One Word has been going so far these first 2 weeks of 2016!

I would give myself a strong B on this report card.  There are some “projects” where I really have “nailed it” and other pop quizzes life has thrown at me that I have bombed!

First-the WINS- We had the immense pleasure of taking our children to Florida the first week of the year.  I planned to immerse myself in this family time and truly get subsumed by the blessings I have.  I vowed to myself that I wouldn’t be on social media; no posting, no blogging.  I wouldn’t be calling and texting people back home constantly.  I was just going to be immersed in these memorable moments.  I am happy to say I did just that and was so much better for it.

Second, we got a new puppy this week, aptly named Atticus and he is a mini goldendoodle.  He is a cutie and I had vowed to myself that I would fully immerse myself into his proper training for my future sanity and for that of my hubby’s.  So far, so good.  Only 2 accidents and one was totally a human fail.

Third, I got to work with the super-talented Jennifer Didio of Jennifer Didio Photography for the purpose of having professional head shots to use for upcoming projects.  I was so nervous about this.  Knowing that I am not where I want to be ‘weight-wise’ and having many insecurities about my appearance; far to many to be listed here today, and just not being able to control the outcome were huge hurdles for me to jump.I decided to muster up my courage and follow my own preaching which is to revert back to the word I’d chosen to be my motto for 2016.  Would backing out of the photo shoot be immersing myself in this creative life I say I want?  Would I be immersing myself into this one life I have by running scared or by quitting while I was behind?  No- to stay true to this, I would have to immerse myself into the experience, hesitations and all.  Was it easy?  Hell no!  HELL NO!  But, I did it.  I didn’t cave to my own negativity.  And that to me is a huge win!

There are things this year I feel I am not succeeding with.  My most important role of wife being one of them.  I know I need to be a better wife to my husband.  He is a remarkable human and he deserves to spend his time with a remarkable human in return.  There are times I fall sooooooo damn short.  I want to work on immersing myself into my marriage more and into my husband.  History has proven for us that we are so much better when we are working together.  I need to let him in and hold him in the high esteem with which he deserves.  He would blush if he read this and say I was super wife, but sometimes- and I think you ALL will be able to agree with this- sometimes only we can truly know our shortcomings and what we COULD be verses what we ARE.  I know I can be a better wife.  I strive to be, everyday.  I want to immerse myself in that task so my husband can be living the best life he can.  He deserves it!

I also need to become more immersed with my healthy living goals and aspirations.  It is so easy to slip off track and ever more difficult to get back on.  I want to become immersed in the dedication to a healthy mindset- everyday in 2016.  And always.

I have exciting news coming soon.  Stick around to be the first to hear it!

Thanks to all of you who are taking this ride with me.  I am so thankful for you all!

 

 

 

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Here is a Permission Slip to Rear-End my Vehicle!

Good Night!  I am writing to you all on the eve of an important day for me.  Tomorrow is the day I go back on my diet (healthier way of life).

For most of you, I need to go deeper into this so that you have an understanding of what has been happening over here.

In June I decided I would change my lifestyle and my eating by eating lean proteins and cutting out most carbs, sugars, etc.  This proved to be very successful for me and I lost 25 pounds in less than 3 months.  See progress photo here:

IMG_0474It is important for you to understand that I made the choice to go on this diet because with each day, I was becoming more and more miserable in my own skin.  Please note I am well aware that there are people out there bigger than I was and I am not here to comment or judge anything about them or their appearance.  I 110% believe it is up to each person to draw their own conclusions about their health.  I am merely stating that I was personally unhappy with myself.  It was seeping into every aspect of my life (as things typically do).  I have found that people who are unhappy with themselves become so very toxic to themselves and to those around them.  I was tired of being miserable.  I was tired of making others miserable.  I wanted to be healthy for my husband so we could share a long life together.  I wanted to go shopping without that feeling of COMPLETE DREAD that I had (still have).  I wanted to be a positive role model for my children ; a mom they could be proud to point out to their friends.  Shit, I wanted to be HOT.  Not like in a “run around on my hubby” kind of hot but just hot for myself.  Hot like going into a dressing room and knowing everything will fit and everything will look pretty damn amazing…That kind of hot.

So, I made the decision, took the plunge and began my journey.  I took measurements each week as well as photos.  I was very strict and I was making pretty amazing strides.  Then, I had my hysterectomy scheduled and was told that I had to go off the diet ASAP and would have to wait to go back on until well after my surgery.  This had to happen because I had put my body in Ketosis with this diet and I needed to have my system running at full capacity when going under the knife and then healing from a major surgery.  In that time (about 2 months) I have gained 11 lbs. back.

I know what you may be thinking.  “Hey, you didn’t gain it all back.” You are, of course, correct.  I am thankful for that.  I had hoped I would not gain any, but I did.  It has happened and its fact.

So here I am, the eve of the new beginning of this diet for me.  I vowed to myself that I would be sure to blog truly authentic content.  That I would be brave and forge forward with my writing and when I am honest with myself, I know that means I need to write about ALL the stuff, not just the good and flowery stuff.  The truth is, I am looking at a tough road ahead with a goal to get to a healthy weight.  I am looking to lose 75 more lbs.  I will lose 75 lbs.

The memoirs of THIS housewife is complex.  More complex than even I realized.  There are so many things I want to embrace in this amazing life.  I am in love with my life and my family and I want to be a DOER.  I don’t want to be a person who “talks” about what they want to do, I want to be the person “doing” it.

So that may feel to some of you that I am all over the place.  When I am blogging about my husband, kids, helpful organization tips, my writing, my weight loss, my swimming, holiday ideas, creative business endeavors, etc. But I am here, in my truth- being me.  Complex and multi-faceted and living this Extraordinary Life in Camo (just as promised on the header of the blog).

So PLEASE say a prayer for me.  Wish me well.  Support my efforts.  And if you see me in a McDonald’s drive through, rear-end me.  Seriously, you totally have my permission.  Here is the permission slip!

Motivational Tip for those of you who want to join me on the Healthy Train:  Check out my Pinterest (Quatro Mom) to look at my board, “What I’ll be Sportin’ when I’m Skinny”.  I think the visual motivation this will provide will be worth it’s weight in gold for me!  The, create your own board that you can fill with images, recipes, quotes, clothes, etc. that get you excited about your journey.  Follow me on Pinterest and I will follow you.  Share your board with me.  I want to support you as well!

XOXO