I took a break last week from my blogging and my writing. I settled in on vacation with my family and tried to be present for all of it.
And you know what? It was amazing. It was the epitome of the wonder I am seeking year long.
This was last week. Beautiful beach. Sea air. Colder but still majestic. Today? I sit staring out at the first full day of spring- watching the skies dump huge amounts of snow for hours upon hours.
I see the wonder in both. I am so lucky!
The point of choosing a word is so you can have focus. So you can enhance your life and hopefully other’s lives. I feel blessed because I am finding the wonder in each thing. And it is such an amazing quest to be on.
Dont misunderstand me; not everything is perfect or without stress sometimes- but this word is leading me intentionally to seek the joy; the wonder.
I’m feeling all the feels today. Full of wonder and gratitude. Even surrounded by inclement weather, I feel the sunshine. This man, my husband, turns 43 today! And I am in wonder every day that we get to share this life together. It is a blessing. I see it for what it is. That is a gift in and of itself.
I am also feeling a touch of melancholy today. You see, this 43rd birthday for my husband has been huge for me. My father died when he was 42. I was 7 and at the time it seemed as though he was so old. I remember being perplexed when people said, “Oh, he was so young…” I was cognizant of many things all year that my husband was 42. I was aware we also had 4 children. That we also had a 7 year old. The familiar roles were at times, startling.
And now, today, he is 43. The spell has been broken. We are together and we are living on. Sometimes tedious, sometimes hard but always, always full of wonder.
I suspect most of the wonders I seek this year will be hidden. Will be things that I need to take a second or third look to see and find. That is part of their wonder, true?
Today, I found wonder in an obvious place. Some would say easy even. I don’t care. My goal is to delight in wonder all year long, where ever I should find it. Even when I don’t have to look far at all.
Look at her. My eldest child, Studious. She is my wondrous find today. I often marvel at how she has grown. How she has navigated this life to find her own place in which to stand and grow. She has faced adversities and she always and repeatedly rises. I am so proud and so in absolute wonder that I had anything to do with this.
In this photo, we were on a recent trip to NYC – just the two of us. It was such an amazing gift from my husband. It was perfect for too many reasons to list here. In this picture, she is standing on the top of the Empire State Building (which needs to Go Gold for Pediatric Cancer- seriously, their refusal infuriates me BUT that is for another time). She is standing overlooking NYC and I am in awe of her. The old adage of ‘The world is her oyster’ is so true and she is so lucky. And what makes her so full of wonder? She knows this. She knows that she is a participant in this world and she was not just put here to pay bills and die. She has goals and aspirations and she will leave a positive impact on this place. She is so wonderful or rather WonderFULL.
When I look for things or moments this year to encapsulate wonder for me, I will look broad and far. However, today, I recognize that when someone you have known their whole life, still takes your breath away- you call it what it is and you celebrate them.
I am so blessed to be on this journey. I am so blessed to be a mother. It is the greatest role in life. I will stop to see it and I will do my absolute best to recognize and delight in it.
Thank you to Studious for constantly showing me wonder. For 21+ years I have been in awe of you, your dedication and determination. I love you. XOXO
My word for 2018 is Wonder. My word I pick is always intentional and thoughtful. I try my best to map out the year I want to have, the year I envision and then I set out to pick the word that will best help me stay my course.
(art done by in house artist, Spicy)
I want to see the world through a different lens, perhaps a psychedelic one. I want to see the good in all. I want to feel that glimmer of extraordinary in everything. I want to make intentional choices for myself that bring me wondrous things. I want to inspire others to seek their own wonders. That was my plan. It most certainly still is.
But somehow, it is nearly March. How is that possible? Is anyone else shocked by this?
I feel in times such as these, when we have fabulous notions and ideas but we let time slip by (or rather it squeaks by on its own), the best plan of action is a PLAN OF ACTION! A purposeful intention that is also a regimented intention.
I vow to check in here each week, we’ll say Wednesdays- I call them:
When I write this little blog of mine, in my little space on the internet- I will report to you the wonder I have seen, felt, tasted and discovered. I challenge you all to go find wonderful things as well.